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I think people tend to wonder about me. I'm asexual and intersexed, and I'm not interested in relationships; if I spent my life alone, I wouldn't consider it that bad. I spend my life absorbed in personal creative projects - always have, always will.
Some people might wonder how someone could be inspired if there is no love in their life, but it's pretty simple. Let me explain.
Almost every human being has an innate desire to leave a legacy. To have someone to carry on a piece of themselves into the future, long after they've died. For many (I daresay most) people, this manifests itself as a desire to have children. In this way, they pass on their genes to the next generation, thereby living on through the children.
Realising this, it's simple logic to see that there's absolutely no way I can pursue this method of leaving a legacy. Because of my intersex condition, I don't have the equipment to have children, and therefore never can and never will.
I think part of my brain knew this all along, because I've had no interest in finding a partner or having sex, let alone feeling a biological clock ticking away.
So, that's one way of leaving a legacy. What are some others?
Well, there's being really, really talented and good at something, like a runner or the world's best chess player. People definitely remember those guys.
...But I'm not exceptional at anything.
There's being famous in general - be it an actor, or a musician, or just famous for no reason like Lara Bingle is.
...I'm not attractive or charismatic enough to be famous. Not even INTERNET famous.
Then, there's creating something that leaves a mark on peoples' memories.
I am a creative person, no doubt. I'm not GREAT at anything and quite possibly never will be, but being GOOD at a number of things, I feel, is still within my reach.
To be creative, to me, is to continually try and make something that is going to leave my mark on the world in some way. Something that will outlast me. Something that people will look at a hundred years from now and think, "this means something to me".
That's what drives me. I draw and I draw and I write and I write and I animate and I animate and I sing and I do all kinds of stuff - all for the purpose of leaving something behind. Because my life MUST NOT be wasted doing frivolous things.
This is also why I've historically resented jobs I have had - it is always vaccuuming up the time I NEED to do things like animation. Animation is just about the most time-consuming artistic endeavour possible! And yet it's this medium that I want to leave my mark. Why animation? Because I'm not nearly good enough at drawing to be an acclaimed still artist - and I consider myself pretty damn good at using animation software. All I need is to close the gaps in my knowledge through lots of practice. But where do I find the time for that if I have to work all the time?
All I can do is keep persisting, I suppose.
Some people might wonder how someone could be inspired if there is no love in their life, but it's pretty simple. Let me explain.
Almost every human being has an innate desire to leave a legacy. To have someone to carry on a piece of themselves into the future, long after they've died. For many (I daresay most) people, this manifests itself as a desire to have children. In this way, they pass on their genes to the next generation, thereby living on through the children.
Realising this, it's simple logic to see that there's absolutely no way I can pursue this method of leaving a legacy. Because of my intersex condition, I don't have the equipment to have children, and therefore never can and never will.
I think part of my brain knew this all along, because I've had no interest in finding a partner or having sex, let alone feeling a biological clock ticking away.
So, that's one way of leaving a legacy. What are some others?
Well, there's being really, really talented and good at something, like a runner or the world's best chess player. People definitely remember those guys.
...But I'm not exceptional at anything.
There's being famous in general - be it an actor, or a musician, or just famous for no reason like Lara Bingle is.
...I'm not attractive or charismatic enough to be famous. Not even INTERNET famous.
Then, there's creating something that leaves a mark on peoples' memories.
I am a creative person, no doubt. I'm not GREAT at anything and quite possibly never will be, but being GOOD at a number of things, I feel, is still within my reach.
To be creative, to me, is to continually try and make something that is going to leave my mark on the world in some way. Something that will outlast me. Something that people will look at a hundred years from now and think, "this means something to me".
That's what drives me. I draw and I draw and I write and I write and I animate and I animate and I sing and I do all kinds of stuff - all for the purpose of leaving something behind. Because my life MUST NOT be wasted doing frivolous things.
This is also why I've historically resented jobs I have had - it is always vaccuuming up the time I NEED to do things like animation. Animation is just about the most time-consuming artistic endeavour possible! And yet it's this medium that I want to leave my mark. Why animation? Because I'm not nearly good enough at drawing to be an acclaimed still artist - and I consider myself pretty damn good at using animation software. All I need is to close the gaps in my knowledge through lots of practice. But where do I find the time for that if I have to work all the time?
All I can do is keep persisting, I suppose.
Err Scratch That.
Forget what I said yesterday.
That project has just been bumped out of the No. 1 Priority spot because of: http://www.tafeclips.com.au/
Basically, I just found out that my education institute is running a short film competition endorsed by the ABC with prizes. My 101 Things list also includes creating a short film and submitting a film to a film festival.
Entries open in 45 days. Let's hope they don't close too quickly, because I'll be in Fiji for my brother's wedding the very day that entries open >_<
Anyway, I need to do this above all else because there's a deadline!
Now I need to think about this like crazy.
So, drawing and stuff
I've been drawing like crazy recently. CRAZY I TELLS YA!
I was thinking... I'm not ready to make a tv show just yet, as much as I'd like to. My animation skills haven't been developed enough for that. Plus I don't currently have the time/money for it to be feasible to even start.
But there are some other things on my to-create list that have caught my interest of late.
I'm doing the 101 Things in 1001 Days for the second time. It's been about a month now, and I've accomplished a few things, while getting started on other things.
And so, drawing Blob Bunny :thumb310512103: and Sad Owl :thumb284978514: made me think that maybe I could make
Me on Drawception
Hey all, just letting you know I've been doing tonnes of drawings on Drawception these past few months. Here's my profile page: http://drawception.com/player/21514/natnie/&filter=drawings
Good Deeds Depravia
Hi all, been a while since my last entry here.
Anyway, I haven't worked on A&E for a while, for many different reasons, the biggest one being I have got more interested in animation than still images.
Besides remaking an animation I made back in 2004 [ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYEFxakVJ8E ], I've been planning something of a major project, called Good Deeds Depravia, which is probably going to be a 20-40 minute cartoon. I'm going to be participating in Script Frenzy in April to write my script for it. I've been working on my character concept art, and piecing my plotline together.
Here's a poster I created to show off on the Script F
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